Ramblings of a Wandering Luney

So..its been awhile. A lot has happened I suppose. Said goodbye to people, which was fun but hard. I don't do goodbyes well, especially not with the people who will have graduated when I return. Next year won't be the same without them. Went trail riding with Sarah which was fun. It was nice to talk to her and spend time with her. Jud takes up most of her free time now. But that's ok, he seems to be a good guy. Matt came down for a few days which was fun. We did a lot of shopping without buying anything, lol. Sunday I felt like a broken record. Everyone asked me the same questions, and so I had to say the same answers over and over again. Not many people my age were there since I went to the early service so I could get home to help mom cook. But the music was really good and I enjoy Josiah's preaching. It was good to see people again, as hard as it can be sometimes. Cooked with mom then we went riding through all of the hay fields. I love it. Chico is such a great horse and it was a beautiful day. We didn't open our gifts that night since Sarah was out with Jud, so I watched a movie with day (Guess Who). Christmas I woke up early to make breakfast for everyone and we opened gifts around 10, dad and I cooked more cause mom got distracted. I ended up getting frustrated cause sarah and jud critisized everything I did. It sucks to work that hard one something just to get criticized. Jill and Duane came to dinner and it was a nice dinner. I enjoy being with them and the family. After dinner I finished setting up my web cam and talked on it some. Today has been mostly getting things ready to leave for Spain. My dad has really been stressing over it which gets me stressed. I dunno. I'm nervous, but excited, and sad. Having the webcam will help I think. I know teh study abroad director would kill me if he knew i had one, but I'm not telling my parents that. I'll get enough culture living there, talking on a web cam isn't going to kill that experience. I'm having a hard time leaving people though, especially Matt. I know that's going to be a struggle. But hey, once we're through this, what other big hurtle can be thrown at us? If we can handle this, we can handle most anything right? Hmm...I'm being more open than usually, probably not the best thing, but I need it right now. I need say I'm scared, excited, but scared. Working with the Red Cross will be cool. I hope my host mom is nice and that we get along. I hope I don't fail my language placement class and that I can understand my professors. I hope I make friends and find my way around. I hope I'll be able to travel some. I'm hope I"ll get along with the other girls. I'm sure everything will go well, and all those scenarios will be fine, but those are the things that have been on my mind. My family is going to drive me nuts with the do this right now and what if this happens and this must be done this way. I'm nervous and stressed enough with preparing stuff to go. Oh well, its only cause they're nervous and they love me. I'm looking forward to going down to Columbia. Maybe I can leave a day early. Its been only a couple of days and I'm already anxious to be down there? This could be rough. I should get some sleep so I can get up early and get more stuff done. Whoo. Lots of love.