Ramblings of a Wandering Luney

took an online quiz cause i didn't feel like studying for anatomy. Yea Britt, I was just waiting for an Anatomy study-buddy right? Whatever =-P

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Yea, so I notice that now that I have more time, I tend to waste a lot more of it doing nothing. I need to work on taking the good time using habits from last semester and using it now so I can spend more time with people That's definitely the key of this semester. I really want to love my friends well this semester, even if that means not doing quite as well in classes. Speaking of friends, I had a blast hanging out with my new roomie on Sunday. We played raquetball for almost 2 hours. She's fun and slowly teaching me that not all Greeks are that bad. Yea, I've never had a high view of sorority girls before... But other than our sleep habits, we get along great. I feel bad for her though. I can tell that she's having a rough time adjusting to being here and misses her friends. The people I hang out with aren't...well...what's she's use to.

So much has been on my mind lately about just about everything. Spirituality, who I am, friends, relationships, classes, future past....I guess that's a by product of having more time. I think more. Its a good thing...sometimes. Tara and I agree that a girl left to herself thinking can sometimes be a dangerous thing. Reality can be warped or it can become more clear. So depending on the day and the circumstances, its a good thing or a bad thing. Today I started to read through Luke. I always avoided reading through the gospels because people always talk about them and read from them so it gets to the point where I skim over them out of habit because I've heard the story so many times. But it hit me today that I want to know who God is, not just how I should live. If I look to how I should like I'm missing the main purpose of being a Christian and replacing it with religiosity and good works. I'm missing it entirely.

Okay, gotta interject this: I don't have much of a sense of smell, but this dorm building definitely smells like gasoline right now and its getting to me... no, not making me high, just giving me a headache.

Speaking of headaches, anyone know what could be causing neck and upper back pain? It really has been bothering me. Sometimes it hurts so bad that it makes my head hurt and makes me dizzy. Alot of times I can't sleep well at night either. No, pain meds don't seem to help either. Oh well, maybe I'll suck it up and actually go see a doctor at some point. Not Redfern either. They'll just look at me with a blank stare, say they don't know and give me more codiene.

Intramural soccer starts tonight!! Meagan and I started a girls team names Cat Fight. We're definitely a motely crew but it should be fun. Our co-ed team starts playing tomorrow night. We're the Meatloafers....oh goodness....

Is it just me, or does this weather definitely not feel like January. Its nice, don't get me wrong, but I kinda wish it'd get cold again. But, I won't complain either way, cause warm weather is nice too. Its a beautiful day....yea, sorry, I won't sing that could get scary... =-P

Off to physics lab. whoo. (note that lack of enthusiasm)

MMM...I love waking up slowly, turning on the music and drinking hot coco with cookies dipped in it.

On a happier note, it has been a good relaxing night. Hanging out with friends, going out to eat, football, stealing hats, chasing, running, playing, movie, candy, dancing...

All good times of a Friday night.

AHH!! I hate it! HATE it!! No, dont' try to make sense of it because it won't make sense, but I need to vent. It sickens me. I feel awful. I wish I were invisible. That'd be good. No, not invisible. That wouldn't help. Blind, niave?

Rip it up, burn it, break it, smash it...

I know, I need to just deal with it. Easier said then done...

Disgusting. Fea.

Would? Yes. Will? No.

If only I could turn back time...

Why do I still try to organize things? I know better than to do that. I'm unorganized and most things I attempt to do don't work out. But I'm trying anyway. Hopefully this will pull through. We're trying to make a girls intramural team. I'm on a coed one, but playing on two teams would be a blast, especially and all girls one.

Yea, so, I finally went. It was what I expected (and I didn't expect much), but hey, at least I went and am trying. I have a week now, a little over actually. We'll see what happens. We'll see if next time is better. Who knows. I have a feeling I'm going to hate it, but i'll try to like it since I have to go anyway... sorta.

So I went back to fencing this semester. I missed it! The people are so fun and its so stress-relieving. I'm very out of practice though. I didn't get to bout at the last practice cause I had to leave early, but it will be interesting if I get to tonight. I'll probably get schooled by a newbie, but it will be fun anyway.

Well, I'm off to my first turbo kick class with my lovely suite mate. Yea..this should be funny =-P

Yea, ok, so I ranted yesterday. Its actually more of the opposite problem I have right now. I just wish God would tell me what He wanted me to do it plain words, voice from the sky kinda thing. It just seems like decisions that affect a lot more people than just me need some kinda of divine intervention to keep me from messing up their lives as well. Oh well. I have class.

Oh, and that mouse thing was not directed toward a person but something I'm fighting with myself on. So yea.

Meek as a mouse, stubborn as a rat.
Roll over little mouse, roll over again
Bite? Oh no, A good mouse should never do that
Run, run the maze little mouse
Find the path i made for you.
Oh yes, you can stubbornly choose,
but you'll soon find that choice does not matter.
Don't bang against the wall.
Just find my path or you'll ruin the experiment.
Don't make me mad;
I'll just inject you with sleep.
Eat what I give you, drink what I give you.
I'll plan what you do tomorrow, in that you have no option.
Try to hide, I will pick you up.
Shhh, mice are quiet, mice are meek.
Be meek dear mouse, meek.
No one likes a stubborn mouse.

Its been a nice, long weekend =-) Was in Charleston for the first two days. Hanging out with English was a blast, but I don't think the boys realize how dangerous it was leaving the two of us alone together.... Soo much fun, learned alot. Yea, I'm not using good grammar, but I don't care.
Sliding..
Gliding..
No, not really, I'm not actually that graceful on ice skates, but it was still fun.

My roomie is heading outa town on Thursday night and not coming back til Monday. It'll be nice to have my own room for a few days. I love my new roomie, love talking to her and all, but she hasn't made friends yet at Clemson, so she is always in the room. She's going to a sorority meeting on Wednesday. I have a feeling that she is going to join to make friends here. Although she enjoys hanging out with us, we're very .... different from the friends she is use to. And country music 24-7 is nice...but a lot. So a break from it will be good.

Ack, gotta run.

Wow, back in Clemson. Hard to believe. So much happened over break that it felt so long and so short at the same time. But I'm glad to be back. It was so fun seeing people as they were starting to trickle in yesterday. My new roomie seems nice. It'll be fun to get to know her. We stayed up talking for awhile after "going to bed" last night before falling asleep. It was fun hanging out with people before that. I felt more like myself again, not dying under a load of stress. So, this confirmed my resolve to stand firm and not add another class which would bring me up to 20 hours.

Please be praying for me about a decision I have to make. I really need prayer for wisdom right now.

The realization of all the stuff I forgot at home is sinking in, lol. I'm so bad at packing.
Hmm..Off to bi-lo. I'll finish this later. Promise. I think...