Sunday, December 03, 2006
I hate how emotional I can get some days and so freaked out and frustrated only to realize the next day how big of an idiot I was being. Oh well. I'm working on it, so it'll get better. I feel like such a psycho being on medication. But if it helps, I'm for it. I start to get emotional (they say from all my built up emotion that I try to ignore), then I get frustrated and guilty for being so emotional (which are more emotions) and it spirals down from there. But through it I'm learning more about myself and how to change this and stop the cycle (I'm learning it, but it takes a bit of time before a noticeable change will happen they tell me). I just don't like getting that way, it doesn't feel like me when I'm emotional like that. I dunno.
The weekend was good though. Relaxing. I didn't do much except for hang out with people. Movies on Friday night, dancing and baking cookies Saturday afternoon, tennis, time with the roomies, time with Jess and Rus...I got to see her room. She has it fixed up nice. It was fun to get to know them more, especially Rus. Jess got really focused on her coloring so Rus and I got to just talk. I enjoy getting to know people, hearing about their lives and who they are. Jess was really hyper, which was hilarious for awhile, but then she fainted. She worries me with her fainting so much. Or she'll daze out and even snapping or waving won't cause her to blink, she doesn't move and when she comes too (with water) she doesn't remember what happened. I hope she's ok. Church, lunch with Brittany, two hour nap, missed fribee but walked over to the fields as they were ending to talk, reading, homework, made dinner for Jared and I...then the night got interesting...
Someone who I've been friends with the last three years, someone who I hung out with quite a bit but more on a surfacey sports level opened up to me on a real level. What was going on in life and real stuff and wants to meet for lunch. I couldn't believe it. I was excited to say the least. Its kinda sad that stuff like this happens near the end, when I only have two weeks left with the person, but who knows, maybe we'll keep in contact after the person graduates.
Another friend having a rough night stopped by and talked for awhile. I enjoy listening to people, and the person needed someone to talk to so it worked. I'm thankful that my last week isn't stressful so that when people are stressed this week I can be there to support them. I'll also have the opportunity to see people before we head out.
A fencer who has been wanting to hang out this semester but hasnt' had the time suggested lunch this week. So..lunch on thursday it is. I miss fencing and the people, but its kinda nice to have the time for other things. It was so time consuming.
Dropped off cookies for friend.
So basically, it'll be a good week, relaxing. Football playoffs. Yea.
I got the life scared out of me. I left my apartment just for a minute, so I didn't lock the door. When I came back, the door was open slightly and I knew I had closed it all the way. I open it slowly and call out "hello? anyway there?" I look down the hall and the first thing my brain registers is a figure, a male figure. I scream and jump, my hear raced as though it'd come out of me. A moment later I realized it was Matt who said he'd stop by and I collapsed backwards on to the sofa behind me to recover my breath and my heart rate. Yea..so maybe my facial recognition is a little slow...
I should have updated more this weekend, cause there is a lot more to say but I've already written a long post. So... I guess I'll call it a night. Buenas noches.
The weekend was good though. Relaxing. I didn't do much except for hang out with people. Movies on Friday night, dancing and baking cookies Saturday afternoon, tennis, time with the roomies, time with Jess and Rus...I got to see her room. She has it fixed up nice. It was fun to get to know them more, especially Rus. Jess got really focused on her coloring so Rus and I got to just talk. I enjoy getting to know people, hearing about their lives and who they are. Jess was really hyper, which was hilarious for awhile, but then she fainted. She worries me with her fainting so much. Or she'll daze out and even snapping or waving won't cause her to blink, she doesn't move and when she comes too (with water) she doesn't remember what happened. I hope she's ok. Church, lunch with Brittany, two hour nap, missed fribee but walked over to the fields as they were ending to talk, reading, homework, made dinner for Jared and I...then the night got interesting...
Someone who I've been friends with the last three years, someone who I hung out with quite a bit but more on a surfacey sports level opened up to me on a real level. What was going on in life and real stuff and wants to meet for lunch. I couldn't believe it. I was excited to say the least. Its kinda sad that stuff like this happens near the end, when I only have two weeks left with the person, but who knows, maybe we'll keep in contact after the person graduates.
Another friend having a rough night stopped by and talked for awhile. I enjoy listening to people, and the person needed someone to talk to so it worked. I'm thankful that my last week isn't stressful so that when people are stressed this week I can be there to support them. I'll also have the opportunity to see people before we head out.
A fencer who has been wanting to hang out this semester but hasnt' had the time suggested lunch this week. So..lunch on thursday it is. I miss fencing and the people, but its kinda nice to have the time for other things. It was so time consuming.
Dropped off cookies for friend.
So basically, it'll be a good week, relaxing. Football playoffs. Yea.
I got the life scared out of me. I left my apartment just for a minute, so I didn't lock the door. When I came back, the door was open slightly and I knew I had closed it all the way. I open it slowly and call out "hello? anyway there?" I look down the hall and the first thing my brain registers is a figure, a male figure. I scream and jump, my hear raced as though it'd come out of me. A moment later I realized it was Matt who said he'd stop by and I collapsed backwards on to the sofa behind me to recover my breath and my heart rate. Yea..so maybe my facial recognition is a little slow...
I should have updated more this weekend, cause there is a lot more to say but I've already written a long post. So... I guess I'll call it a night. Buenas noches.
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