Sunday, April 16, 2006
"So where do you two know eachother from?"
Laughter.
"Um...we go way back."
Yea, I suppose we look like kinda a mismatched pair on the outside, but once you get to know us we're a lot more alike than you think. At least I think we still are... if we had the time to hang out for awhile again... Man its been so long...
I felt bad. I didn't get back to her in time. I could see the disappointment on her face. It was good to at least see her again. She looks good. It was good to see him with her. He seems kind.
It was a bit overwhelming being there, but good. Kinda strange at the same time. I wanted so badly to spend hours with each of them, but we all only had a couple of minutes to spare. Seems that's the way it goes these days. Hopefully it won't always be that way. Hopefully it won't always be the weddings and (God forbid) the funerals that bring us all back.
I was glad I made it back for the passover service. It was really good. I learned a lot...not just head knowledge though, it really hit me and showed me even more the reality of Christ and the impact of what he has done. I had been a bit bummed during the week because I didn't feel I had gotten the opportunity to really prepare my heart for the Easter weekend. Everything was so crazy and stressful. I tried to settle myself, but it was so hard to just rest and focus on Him. So it was good having a quiet weekend to focus on Him. I miss that. Spending more time with Him, resting, talking...I dunno.
She second guessing. Three and a half years and she's second guessing... I guess its better now than never.
Man, I think I ate more in this past weekend than I do during most weeks. Ugh.
You know something? People ask me and reply too quickly. They don't take the time to realize its not as wonderful as what it sounds. They don't realize that it scares me; that I wish now I could back out; that I feel so inadequate (which I suppose is good in a way); that something happened last time that I haven't thought about much since, but now it makes me nervous...what if that happens again? I know, I need to have faith or something like that. Its true, as cheesy as it sounds and as hard as it is in reality.
I've been having a mono relapse over the last week. I can feel it. I'm just so tired and simple things wear me out. I'm hoping the last couple nights sleep will have straightened me out.
Laughter.
"Um...we go way back."
Yea, I suppose we look like kinda a mismatched pair on the outside, but once you get to know us we're a lot more alike than you think. At least I think we still are... if we had the time to hang out for awhile again... Man its been so long...
I felt bad. I didn't get back to her in time. I could see the disappointment on her face. It was good to at least see her again. She looks good. It was good to see him with her. He seems kind.
It was a bit overwhelming being there, but good. Kinda strange at the same time. I wanted so badly to spend hours with each of them, but we all only had a couple of minutes to spare. Seems that's the way it goes these days. Hopefully it won't always be that way. Hopefully it won't always be the weddings and (God forbid) the funerals that bring us all back.
I was glad I made it back for the passover service. It was really good. I learned a lot...not just head knowledge though, it really hit me and showed me even more the reality of Christ and the impact of what he has done. I had been a bit bummed during the week because I didn't feel I had gotten the opportunity to really prepare my heart for the Easter weekend. Everything was so crazy and stressful. I tried to settle myself, but it was so hard to just rest and focus on Him. So it was good having a quiet weekend to focus on Him. I miss that. Spending more time with Him, resting, talking...I dunno.
She second guessing. Three and a half years and she's second guessing... I guess its better now than never.
Man, I think I ate more in this past weekend than I do during most weeks. Ugh.
You know something? People ask me and reply too quickly. They don't take the time to realize its not as wonderful as what it sounds. They don't realize that it scares me; that I wish now I could back out; that I feel so inadequate (which I suppose is good in a way); that something happened last time that I haven't thought about much since, but now it makes me nervous...what if that happens again? I know, I need to have faith or something like that. Its true, as cheesy as it sounds and as hard as it is in reality.
I've been having a mono relapse over the last week. I can feel it. I'm just so tired and simple things wear me out. I'm hoping the last couple nights sleep will have straightened me out.
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