Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Okay, yea... So I'm definitely feeling unmotivated. Its not that I don't care about what final grade I get, but I just don't feel like putting the effort into it. I don't really want to post, cause I don't know where to begin. So much I could say! But I don't really feel like doing anything else with this ten minutes before class begins, so here I am.
Rule 1: Debating is not something I should be allowed to do. I get into it too much, personally. Very good thing I'm not becoming a lawyer.
Why did I make that a rule? I don't know.
It was good hanging out with Rachel at the small group dinner and just talking. I connect with her better than most people. We talked about life and faith and randomness. I've been realizing lately how self-centered I've become. Someone says they're tired, my first thought is "You think you're tired..." Terrible!! Aweful! I'm just so focused no my own problems that its getting in the way of loving others. Yea, its hard, but it could be worse and it is worse for other people. Its not as bad as I make it out to be in my own head. I'm just too focused on myself to step outside that and see the big picture...
I'm really excited about the Honduras trip though. We looked at pictures of the girls on Sunday. I brouht Winn back pictures of the girls his house church is sponsering. He seemed excited about it as well. Its cool that he's getting involved and excited. I had felt really brushed off by Stuart about the whole thing. Even when I asked him to pray for me and the girls, he just kinda brushed it aside. I dunno, he's probably just really busy especially with his wife being pregnant. Alot on his mind.
I had a lot more fun at soccer last night than I've had in awhile. We played indoor soccer in the raquetball courts, 3 on 3. Much more enjoyable.
Rule 1: Debating is not something I should be allowed to do. I get into it too much, personally. Very good thing I'm not becoming a lawyer.
Why did I make that a rule? I don't know.
It was good hanging out with Rachel at the small group dinner and just talking. I connect with her better than most people. We talked about life and faith and randomness. I've been realizing lately how self-centered I've become. Someone says they're tired, my first thought is "You think you're tired..." Terrible!! Aweful! I'm just so focused no my own problems that its getting in the way of loving others. Yea, its hard, but it could be worse and it is worse for other people. Its not as bad as I make it out to be in my own head. I'm just too focused on myself to step outside that and see the big picture...
I'm really excited about the Honduras trip though. We looked at pictures of the girls on Sunday. I brouht Winn back pictures of the girls his house church is sponsering. He seemed excited about it as well. Its cool that he's getting involved and excited. I had felt really brushed off by Stuart about the whole thing. Even when I asked him to pray for me and the girls, he just kinda brushed it aside. I dunno, he's probably just really busy especially with his wife being pregnant. Alot on his mind.
I had a lot more fun at soccer last night than I've had in awhile. We played indoor soccer in the raquetball courts, 3 on 3. Much more enjoyable.
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