Monday, August 15, 2005
Freedom of the Dance
I remember a bit of what I wanted to post on Friday night.
I love wondering around the outskirt, talking to the outsiders who watch the dancers. Like the dancers, their so different from one another. Some seem like they are longing to dance, some as though they are hiding their shock or a laugh, and some enjoy simply watching. For awhile I enjoyed sitting and watching, but eventually I danced: rigidly at first but as the music played I felt my body relax and move with the rhythm of the drums. Well....move to a rhythm, not quite sure if I was inm rhythm with the drums seeing I have no rhythm. There was another reason that I hadn't danced at first beyond the enjoyment of watching: I had no reason to. Everyone out there seemed to be dancing for a reason and I had none. But as I danced I felt more and more free to move without worry what the people around me thought. There was a reason, to be free from getting caught up in what others think. Sad that I can let a dance do that and not just always not worry about what others think. It was also interesting to dance alone, without a guy leading. Again, had a strange sense of freedom (althought I do love dancing with a partner still).
I finally got to see another side of her that I never knew existed. Amazing how I could have grown up with her, my sister, and never had a deep conversation. But as we walked with our tea and talked philosophy, I was welcomed by a depth of knowledge she had never expressed around me. Sister bonding time, a bit late. In three days I'm gone. But better late than never right?
What he said hit me, convicted me. I am amazed by the change in him and his faith, and I praise God for it. Being around him encouraged my faith and my walk, but convicted me on my lack of passion, my control over my life, and my relationships with others although he never meant to. He was just sharing how his summer went. There is so much going through my mind, so much that is so hard to put it into words without writing a book. Just pray that God will continue to draw me close to Him, help me to realize daily that "it is not I that lives, but Christ in me", realize that He is the most important thing and person in my life, realize that I'm here for a reason, and realize His love for me. He is amazing for never letting me go; He's amazing for loving me and keeping ahold of my heart. Pray that I'll have wisdom. He is good, He is in control and He is gracious.
You're love is extravagent
You're friendship, intimate
I find I'm moving to the rhythms of your grace
You're fragrance is intoxicating in this sacred place
Spread wide in the arms of Christ
Is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
Than you considered me a friend
Capture my heart again.
Help me to realize the magnitude of you considering me a friend.
I love wondering around the outskirt, talking to the outsiders who watch the dancers. Like the dancers, their so different from one another. Some seem like they are longing to dance, some as though they are hiding their shock or a laugh, and some enjoy simply watching. For awhile I enjoyed sitting and watching, but eventually I danced: rigidly at first but as the music played I felt my body relax and move with the rhythm of the drums. Well....move to a rhythm, not quite sure if I was inm rhythm with the drums seeing I have no rhythm. There was another reason that I hadn't danced at first beyond the enjoyment of watching: I had no reason to. Everyone out there seemed to be dancing for a reason and I had none. But as I danced I felt more and more free to move without worry what the people around me thought. There was a reason, to be free from getting caught up in what others think. Sad that I can let a dance do that and not just always not worry about what others think. It was also interesting to dance alone, without a guy leading. Again, had a strange sense of freedom (althought I do love dancing with a partner still).
I finally got to see another side of her that I never knew existed. Amazing how I could have grown up with her, my sister, and never had a deep conversation. But as we walked with our tea and talked philosophy, I was welcomed by a depth of knowledge she had never expressed around me. Sister bonding time, a bit late. In three days I'm gone. But better late than never right?
What he said hit me, convicted me. I am amazed by the change in him and his faith, and I praise God for it. Being around him encouraged my faith and my walk, but convicted me on my lack of passion, my control over my life, and my relationships with others although he never meant to. He was just sharing how his summer went. There is so much going through my mind, so much that is so hard to put it into words without writing a book. Just pray that God will continue to draw me close to Him, help me to realize daily that "it is not I that lives, but Christ in me", realize that He is the most important thing and person in my life, realize that I'm here for a reason, and realize His love for me. He is amazing for never letting me go; He's amazing for loving me and keeping ahold of my heart. Pray that I'll have wisdom. He is good, He is in control and He is gracious.
You're love is extravagent
You're friendship, intimate
I find I'm moving to the rhythms of your grace
You're fragrance is intoxicating in this sacred place
Spread wide in the arms of Christ
Is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
Than you considered me a friend
Capture my heart again.
Help me to realize the magnitude of you considering me a friend.
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