Ramblings of a Wandering Luney

Try. Fail. Try. Succeed. Ignore. Fail.
Attempt to stand. Fall.
Push against a hurricane.
Scream above the thunder.
Outrun a train.
Attempt to stand. Fall.
I know, you have a reason. But I hate dependence. Havn't we gone over this before? I hate not being able to do something. Not being able to help them or myself. I feel powerless. You say you have a reason. You say You are the strength.

My knee gave out again today.

I'm confused. So confused. I kinda wanted to just walk in silence, but soon realized that my companion would have none of that so gave up. I returned hoping for silence, but my room was full. I woke up looking for silence, but yet again there was none. Silence feels ellusive, but I know its not. If I wanted to, I could walk somewhere and find a quiet spot but I don't. Maybe I'm afraid of what thoughts will cross my mind, or what I'll learn about myself. Hmm...Maybe tomorrow I'll go somewhere quiet before class starts, early in the morning. Maybe...

I have something on my mind that I really want to put here, but it must wait. I promised a friend I'd go to Fike with her. Have a lovely day.