Ramblings of a Wandering Luney

Today was a good day. Never before have I turned off my alarm in my sleep. Most people would think that would make a day bad. Okay, I did feel really bad for my friends and was disappointed I didn't get to go to breakfast with them, but it was sorta fun in a way, adventurous. To realize that you've done something everyone else has but you havn't and to fly through getting ready and getting friends together to leave. We made it ontime, but minus breakfast. Early thing morning (before sleep) in the laundry room was fun too. Just chillin' and enjoying being with people.

"Ashley, you're quite today." Doug looked at me with that concerned look. Okay, something was on my mind, but it wasn't too bad. And sometimes I'm just more quiet then others, it doesn't always mean something is wrong.

Talked to him today. Yes, miracle, we actually had a conversation meaning both spoke. Basically we didn't get anywhere but our feelings in the open, but that's good at least. We're decided to keep things the same and see what happens. Maybe the openness will have helped some of the weirdness. Time will tell. But in the mean time I'm alot happier that things are in the open. So life is better.

I loved hanging out with everyone!! It was so nice to have people hanging in our dorm room, which has been rare lately. The football games were boring but it was fun being with people. Discussing biology and chemistry with John, braiding Matt's hair and playing cards, goofing off with Amanda, laughing at James break our sofa (what in our room hasn't been broken), among other things. I love people. Good times.

Remember how I use to cry easy when I was tired? You'd say hello and I'd cry. Well I think that changed. Twice today I started laughing and couldn't stop. Nothing was funny, I just started laughing. I think Chris thought I went insane.

I feel like God is pulling me closer to him, but I'm still so apathetic and feel so far away. I want to change, but... I can't explain what I"m feeling tonight. I"m too tired. Good night.