Monday, January 17, 2005
She reminded me so much of her that it hurt. The way she looked, her voice...
I thought maybe talking about it would help, but then I ended up just bringing up bad memories for a friend. I feel really bad about that. So I sat back, shut up and thought. I know she's in a better place, she's far happier there then here, and that there was a reason. But its been 7 months and I still wish it had been me some days. I never thought it would take this long to get over losing people. Not just her, but the other two also. Okay, I'll stop with the depressing topic.
Ice skating today was fun. A bit weird though. We're going through and awkward time (speaking of awkward that is a weird word to type, maybe I'm spelling it wrong). We had a talk tonight, after getting back. Well, yet again it was comparable to pulling teeth. Its frustrating and I don't quite know what to do about it. It makes me almost ... never mind. In a way I feel... you know what, second thought, I'm not going to go into this.
I'm surprised how good I've been doing today for having only gotten three hours of sleep. Bummer, I have to go back to classes tomorrow. Oh well. Maybe I'll post again later, maybe not.
I thought maybe talking about it would help, but then I ended up just bringing up bad memories for a friend. I feel really bad about that. So I sat back, shut up and thought. I know she's in a better place, she's far happier there then here, and that there was a reason. But its been 7 months and I still wish it had been me some days. I never thought it would take this long to get over losing people. Not just her, but the other two also. Okay, I'll stop with the depressing topic.
Ice skating today was fun. A bit weird though. We're going through and awkward time (speaking of awkward that is a weird word to type, maybe I'm spelling it wrong). We had a talk tonight, after getting back. Well, yet again it was comparable to pulling teeth. Its frustrating and I don't quite know what to do about it. It makes me almost ... never mind. In a way I feel... you know what, second thought, I'm not going to go into this.
I'm surprised how good I've been doing today for having only gotten three hours of sleep. Bummer, I have to go back to classes tomorrow. Oh well. Maybe I'll post again later, maybe not.
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