Ramblings of a Wandering Luney

The service today really hit me and what was said about relationships. I want to apologize to all my friends for not loving you all like you deserve. I replaced unity and humility with pride, self-centerness, and made agreeability the goal. I shunned you when we didn't seem "compatible". The line "the thing I like best about you is me" really hit me. I have a bad tendency to look for traits in people that are "like my own". I'm sorry for not respecting you as a person. I'm sorry for not serving you above myself. I'm sorry for letting my pride make me blind to your needs. You were there when I needed you, you stuck by me, and I took your friendship for granted. I pray that God will change my heart (as only He can). God, I'm messed up and lost. I don't even know where to begin. I have mistreated You as badly as I have my friends here. Forgive me for taking You and them for granted. Humble me. Show me my pride and sin, but don't leave me there. Change me, Lord. Thank you Lord for your patience and that you don't give up on me even though I mess up over and over again. Save me from myself and heal me.