Wednesday, February 18, 2004
For those of you youth group people who got Chip's e-mail, doesn't that book sound good? The part that caught my eye when I was reading it was:
"Much of what has passed for the Christian message has been nothing more than frothy God-talk--mindless, thoughtless, and in its exploitation of people, heartless."
It seems like most of the time I settle for just that, a nice message. I wake up, go to school, go through the day, the motions, it's all routine with some snatches of fun inbetween. It's like I try to put God in a box.
"This is who you are God. . . this is Your part of the day God . . . I'll talk to you later God I just have to run now or I'll be late."
I have snatches of time during the day where I'll talk to God or remember Him, but the rest of the day I generally live for myself. I go through the day taking every opportunity to enjoy it for myself. I'm not saying that that is bad, nor am I saying that I have to stop and pray every five minuets or add Praise God to the end of every sentence. But there is a difference between living a routine and truely living for God. Spending time with Him out of love instead of out of duty, take the time to just listen to Him (wow, it seems like I never take the time to listen to anyone anymore. I've gotten so self-absorbed. I just talk and talk without regard to other people. Definetly something I need to work on. Tell me if you catch me doing that). It's so easy just to put on the Christian face and say all the right Christian words and do the right Christian thing out of routine, pressure or for the respect of others. I also let the daily struggles get to me, the small stuff. I forget during the day to lean on Him and that I can trust Him. But during the day it sounds like more Christian fluff, in my heart I'm not truely believing that He can help me.
Thankfully, God is slowly begining to humble me. Quite a painful process. He is showing me where I fail (yea, I tend to be blind to my sin) and showing me how much I need Him and His grace. But these moments of reflection on God and moments of learning seem to be so short lived. It's like He speaks to my heart than a hour later I forget what He showed me. I am so messed up and in need of His grace.
I lose sight of His grace so easily. Once again I make it out to be some Christian fluff.
Lord, soften my heart and give me a desire for You that does not fade. I'm messed up Lord, please give me a real picture of Your grace. Help me to get to know You and see your grace in terms of who You really are and not just all this Christian froth. I need You.
"Much of what has passed for the Christian message has been nothing more than frothy God-talk--mindless, thoughtless, and in its exploitation of people, heartless."
It seems like most of the time I settle for just that, a nice message. I wake up, go to school, go through the day, the motions, it's all routine with some snatches of fun inbetween. It's like I try to put God in a box.
"This is who you are God. . . this is Your part of the day God . . . I'll talk to you later God I just have to run now or I'll be late."
I have snatches of time during the day where I'll talk to God or remember Him, but the rest of the day I generally live for myself. I go through the day taking every opportunity to enjoy it for myself. I'm not saying that that is bad, nor am I saying that I have to stop and pray every five minuets or add Praise God to the end of every sentence. But there is a difference between living a routine and truely living for God. Spending time with Him out of love instead of out of duty, take the time to just listen to Him (wow, it seems like I never take the time to listen to anyone anymore. I've gotten so self-absorbed. I just talk and talk without regard to other people. Definetly something I need to work on. Tell me if you catch me doing that). It's so easy just to put on the Christian face and say all the right Christian words and do the right Christian thing out of routine, pressure or for the respect of others. I also let the daily struggles get to me, the small stuff. I forget during the day to lean on Him and that I can trust Him. But during the day it sounds like more Christian fluff, in my heart I'm not truely believing that He can help me.
Thankfully, God is slowly begining to humble me. Quite a painful process. He is showing me where I fail (yea, I tend to be blind to my sin) and showing me how much I need Him and His grace. But these moments of reflection on God and moments of learning seem to be so short lived. It's like He speaks to my heart than a hour later I forget what He showed me. I am so messed up and in need of His grace.
I lose sight of His grace so easily. Once again I make it out to be some Christian fluff.
Lord, soften my heart and give me a desire for You that does not fade. I'm messed up Lord, please give me a real picture of Your grace. Help me to get to know You and see your grace in terms of who You really are and not just all this Christian froth. I need You.
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